Judy...I am so sorry about you husband. I lost mine to the dreaded big C...in 1982, but I have not gotten really used to being alone. You never stop missing them...but I was working on a very responsible job,and had a son to get through school...so I guess I stayed busy...Can you plan some activity, for the days that nobody is around? I know...you really don't want to...it takes awhile , but you need to go volunteer at a nursing home or the library, or somewhere to get yourself out...and your mind off things.I found myself...after a few months really enjoying other people. Do you happen to live close to a college, or something...to consider renting a room to a student? I did that one year. (it was a little income, which I found handy at the time, and it was nice to look forward to someone coming in at night) I will not say Time will make it better, as a lot of wonderful, well meaning people said to me...I will say, it is different, with time. And some of us will be online to talk to you, anytime you are lonely and want to talk. And you pick the subject of conversation .. Please remember, we all share some hurt and sorrow in our lives, no doubt, at our ages, we want to be friends anyway we can. So thanks for writing...and I hope you find the strength you need. Love, Stella