I am sure this is a "private" message. Ann In a message dated 8/16/2007 5:00:26 P.M. Eastern Daylight Time, [email protected] writes: Things here are back to normal, but I haven't started back at the gym yet. I was really tired and sore for some reason when I got home, so I've just been lounging around, doing laundry etc. I did swing by the liquor store this afternoon and I picked up the divided boxes I need to send the glass. I'm also going to use a lot of packing material too. II went to Linen and Things this afternoon to get 3 small things......I ended up with a new pillow ( mine is at least 15 years old and very brown and yucky looking). I also got the memory foam bed topper....that should feel very nice and cozy, a new lamp to put on the table I got from Target ( next to my chair), and I splurged on an air filtration machine. I had that $20 off thing that comes in the mail. Carol called me this morning to tell me that her mother died in her sleep last night.....what a nice way to go. Carol is not upset by this because she hasn't seen or talked to her mother since about January. She did see her last month on Carol's trip to Michigan when her nephew got married. At that time Carol said that her mother looked really old and sick......Carol did go and give her a hug and they had a few words but no conversation. Now all of Carol's mom's stuff will go to the step dad that all of the kids hate. He is living in the condo of Carol's grandmother, as well as the money for the lake house in Michigan. It will be interesting to see how things go with this situation with Carol, her sister, brother and Step Dad. I still have more stuff to bring upstairs and then I want to go to the "walking pool" that is heated for a while. Maybe that will take away some of the aches and pains I'm having. When are you expecting Paul to get home? I talked to the shrink about my weepy spells while flying. I think I'm in a totally different place now with my felling's about losing Frank. I still miss him a lot, but now I think about the life that he missed out on, falling in love, getting married, having kids. I'm sad for you too, because you are missing out on these things T.....and the kids missed out having cousins. Our family is soooo small. I just wish Paul would let me be part of HIS family with HIM. If he just wanted me to come a visit with all of you and do things together. It would mean a lot to me. You don't know how much just getting a hug from him would mean to me, instead of saying " well, it looks like Nana's here", making me feel like the wicked witch . This is sooooooo un-normal for your kids to see.........I hate it! Even Karen asked me what's up with Paul and me and I don't have a clue!!!! I heard someone say yesterday on TV that every thing happens for a reason......and having Frank die is the reason that you and Paul are together and have the kids. If Frank had lived you and Paul would never have met, out side of Franks funeral. Everything would be different. In a split second something was taken from me and given to you in return. Don't you ever think about that? That does not make me sad...but makes me happy. I think you and Paul were meant to be together in life, don't you? I just wish he wouldn't shut me out. >From the comments that Ray made I wonder what Paul does say about me to other people. It would be different if I were a horrible person and a real pain in the ass, drinking and cussing up a storm, mean and nasty to other people but you know I'm not like that..... Enough of the soap box, time to run. Love, Mp, ************************************** Get a sneak peek of the all-new AOL at http://discover.aol.com/memed/aolcom30tour ------------------------------- To unsubscribe from the list, please send an email to [email protected] with the word 'unsubscribe' without the quotes in the subject and the body of the message ************************************** Get a sneak peek of the all-new AOL at http://discover.aol.com/memed/aolcom30tour