Hello Michelle, I have a story to tell you to give you some encouragement. My sister had a baby out of wedlock in 1966. She was encouraged by all family to give her baby for adoption. One family member even attempted to get an abortion for her. (They were not legal back then) She did as she was told and gave her baby away because she wanted her child to have a better life than she knew she could give her. I was the little sister and was not included in all that was going on. One day,a few years ago, after I had begun to research our family tree, I found some web sites where people were searching for missing family members.Some were parents looking for children they had given away or that had been taken away. Some were children looking for birth parents. Some were siblings looking for brothers or sisters they had been separated from. I suddenly remembered hearing my sister weeping alone in her room. And I remembered a portion of scripture..."Rachel weeping for her children that were not..." I called my sister. We had never discussed her baby. Our family was very disfunctional and we were not close. I called her and asked if she had ever wanted to find her child. She said she had always wondered about her but had made a promise to never look for her. I said that I had not promised and would it be OK with her if I went looking. She it would be OK if the child was looking for her. So, I began to search all the web sites I could find, to no avail. My sister had the birth date, the hospital and the parents names and knew the child's given name. Every 3-4 months I would check the web sites and see if there was any new listings. It is amazing how many people are looking for their family members. One day about 3 years later, I found a new website that required us to put in some information. I called my sister and as we were talking about what to put in and while I was on the phone with her, I found her daughter looking for her birth mother. I gave the contact information to my sister, but after I thought about it, I thought she would be too hesitant to follow through. Even though the child was looking for her, my sister was afraid of how the child would receive her because she had given the baby away. On the other hand, the child was afraid that the birth mother would not want to see her because she had been given away. The reality was that my sister always wanted to know about her and the child had always wanted to know the mother. My sisters words were, "Maybe now there can be some closure." I e-mailed the girl and my sister did, too. I live in FL, my sister lived in CA, and the girl lived in Atlanta, GA. The girl e-mailed my sister the sweetest letter thanking her for giving her the opportunity for a wonderful life. She had been talking the week before to a young highschool girl who was tormented that she had made a wrong decision to give up her child for adoption. She told the girl that she wished she could find her birth mother to be able to thank her for the decision she had made. We made contact the week of Christmas and felt we all had the best Christmas gift ever. The following October, I met my niece for the first time face-to-face. We both enjoyed looking at each other to see the family resemblance. She brought to me all of her mothers photo albums and shared her entire life with me. It was wonderful. She was married with three children. Her husband surprised her 2 years ago and took her to CA to meet her birth mother face-to-face. They had several hours together. She had found her birth father by then and was, also, able to meet him on that trip. My sister was blessed to meet them and hear all about her grandchildren. My sister died a year ago. Her daughter was able to be at the funeral and spent time with all of us. There were some very inquisitive looks and whispers, but one of my sisters highschool friends was there and knew right away who she was. It was a great time of bringing all things full circle for all of us. I encourage you to keep on looking. I know your mother has never forgotten you. There may be some uncomfortable moments for you and her, but you will get through it. You need to meet her and she needs to meet you. It may be different for your father, but do not give up. There are grandparents that want to meet you, too. Who knows? You may have an aunt, like me, who is looking for you! Mary K. Rish -- I am using the free version of SPAMfighter for private users. It has removed 2972 spam emails to date. Paying users do not have this message in their emails. Get the free SPAMfighter here: http://www.download.com/Spamfighter/3000-2382_4-10764780.html