Bud, I too am so glad that you 'found' your grandkids! My granny used to say that 'Grandkids were God's reward for getting old'. I am only 50 but I have a grandson who will be 3 this month. Boy was granny RIGHT!!! I am sure that if you ask God's help He will show you the way. My prayers are with you! Have a Happy Holiday! Sincerely, Julie Van Hoose Hussain