Jennye, I think it's great that you can now talk about this openly. You may have given hope to somebody who thought their situation was hopeless. Joyce > MIlly, you don't even have to feel responsible for the person's death to > have survivor's guilt. Your mind will play over & over what you could have > done that would have changed things. My friends stopped by my house on the > way to the river. I was told later they stopped to ask me to go, but for > some reason they never asked me. My feelings were hurt, because we went > everywhere together. My mom did ask me if I wanted to go with them which > was very much out of character for her. I thought a minute & said no. I > tried to commit suicide 3 times & eventually was put in a mental hospital > where I received counseling that made me lose the wish to kill myself and > want to live, but the pain and guilt took many more years to become > tolerable. I hope this helps you to understand why. God bless all of you. > Love, Jinnye