Hey, Jim, I am answering with goose bumps on my arms and tears in my eyes. I have had the same feelings. My family always said," thoughts are things", so I felt when I came to my for-bearer's former homes. Go as soon as you can. There will be objects there meant for you. You will know when you touch them. Julia P.S. I am so far from my tribal people, on Friday, I went to the Mescalero Reservation and since my father was a blood-brother to the chief in 1935, asked to be given a name in Apache as the old people remember my father and me. They whispered together, then, refused. I believe they called me ' the little girl with the white hair'. What would have been the problem,since they heard I only wanted the name they called me when I was five years old? Julia