> > > "How does one survive through an ordeal like this? I >know I can pray, but my heart is broke." > > An important thing to realize is that all the embarrassment, all the angst, and unease, and anger, and other emotions - do not lower your WORTH ; You are a hundred other things; parent, spouse, taxpayer, gardener; loyal citizen; etc. etc. and all those descriptives that seem to be of no special significance are actually very important, because they add up to a lot more than the aggravation and distress that confront you.