Jeff, I didn't react as severely to homosexual assault as you did, but I did experience a similar situation over anything involving physical abuse of children. You think you have all those bugs worked out in your mind, you think you have expelled all the devils, then you see something on TV or in real life and it brings it all back to the surface. I thought I had resolved my issues over physical abuse years ago, being able to talk about it, interact with the abusers, etc. But even today I can feel the pain and break out in a panic attack watching a child abuse show on TV. I get angry, could beat someone, cry, get tense, sick to my stomach, the whole nine yards. It just brings back all the terror I lived with as a child. I will probably die still experiencing those feelings. Jack Childers in OKC