Jack - You've just got to let her go to wherever. I pick-up on your msg. about the house as being *your house* with *your rules*. . . go to bed, get up early, do chores, housework, etc. Maybe the "rules" in your house fits what you want, but not what someone else would want? I don't know Kade's mother, so I can't 2nd guess. Just curious, how did the two of you meet, and how come you had kids together? There must have been something there in the beginning. If Kade's Mom is so mentally ill, why isn't she confined somewhere? None of my business, of course. You don't have to answer. Jan C. -----Original Message----- From: JACK CHILDERS <jaxone1234@msn.com> To: BLACKSHEEP-CHAT-L@rootsweb.com <BLACKSHEEP-CHAT-L@rootsweb.com> Date: Saturday, May 04, 2002 7:21 AM Subject: Re: [BSChat] ACHES AND PAINS >Boy you got that right Jan Curtis !! She hates my guts, make no bone about it. She thinks I am a anus big time, she thinks I am unreasonable, hard to get along with.....well, shoot, it would be easier to list the one thing she thinks I am good at, and that is she thinks I am an excellent father to Kade. Its the only accolade she has ever given me. > >As for her not wanting to live in my house, that is true also. I have rules in my house and she didn't want to abide by the rules. In my house we go to sleep at a decent time at night, get up early, do chores, housework, protect the family and house, we do not run the streets all night selling our bodies, we do not invite perfect strangers into our house to perform sex acts with them, we do not go out and stock our house with stolen items we shoplifted, we are responsible. > >When the mama decided she could not be bothered with all the above I found her a house of her own she could go live in. She lived in a house 7 miles away from me. She was free to go out and find all the boyfriends she wanted, move them in, move the out, whatever. I paid all her bills out of her SSI check, plus dug into my pocket when it was called for, brought her food, diapers for her incontinence, saw to her every need. Not her wants, but her needs. > >I too wish you could talk to her and hear her side of the story. Then you would put me up for sainthood. I wish you could have been there with her the day she pulled her clothing off in the Social Security Administration to show the worker how she had shaved her body. I wish you had been there riding the city bus when she got stark naked and had sex with a street bum in the back seat. I wish you had of been there the day she left my house to take a bus ride down the street 12 blocks to buy herself some soda, at my expense, and walked into the store with a note to them demanding all their cigarettes or she would set off the bomb she said she had in her purse. I wish you had of been here to help me answer the 18 different investigations by the child abuse welfare people over allegations she leveled against me for, gun running to Cuba, hundreds of lawn trash bag of marijuana that I had hidden in the house, cases and cases of automatic guns I was selling to gang banger, fo! >r having sex with Kade, for making Kade go naked in the house, for my having invented several personas to work under while I hid my millions of dollars from the welfare, for refusing to supply her with food and clothing, for raping her, etc etc etc until I could just puke over all her baseless allegations. > >And yet, because she didn't ask to be run over by a drunk driver and get brain damage, because she didn't ask to be crippled, because she didn't ask to become mentally ill, because she was the mother of my child, I felt sorry for her, understood that she couldn't help a lot of the things she did, I put up with her antics, protected her from herself and others. I didn't ask her to be perfect or a chaste woman, I just asked her to put up a little bit of a front, a facade, of being a mother to a little girl, to not do anything to embarrass the child, to make the world think that at least Kade had a mother. > >She couldn't do that. So she is in Florida. Good grief, with your law and order stance why would you want to listen to a woman who had tried to commit murder ? Her actions speak a thousand times louder than anything she could say. Do you think my actions and behavior merit and justified her trying to kill me, I was just such a beast that murder was all she had left to use against me ? If that were true I wouldn't be in the picture in any sense, Kade would have been removed from my custody, I would be in some jail cell along with the other animals. > >You can feel sorry for her all you want, but god, I sure wish you had her in your house for just one month so you too could enjoy all the joys of having her around. > >Jack Childers in OKC > > >==== BLACKSHEEP-CHAT Mailing List ==== >Unsubscribe from the list: >Mailto:Blacksheep-Chat-L-request@rootsweb.com?subject=unsubscribe&body=unsu bscribe > >============================== >To join Ancestry.com and access our 1.2 billion online genealogy records, go to: >http://www.ancestry.com/rd/redir.asp?targetid=571&sourceid=1237 >